I’ve been beating myself up today because I’ve accomplished nothing. Not that I have been just sitting and staring at a computer screen or played air hockey in the youth room. I’ve just not done anything on my list of things that I really had every intention of completing. Do you ever have one of those days? Oh, I cleaned out a desk drawer and organized a couple of old files – yes and I ate a few jelly beans that I had squirreled away in my desk – I’m not proud of it. There is still time so that the entire day is not a waste. I could have gone for a walk but it turned cold and is drizzling hard. I could have caught up on my reading but I didn’t even do that.
When there are days like this I sometimes will say to myself that it was supposed to be like this. It was my mind’s way of saying you need a break from the pressure and routine and you need to focus on other things. There was no desert place to go off too – but in the midst of my busy work I thought and prayed for people, random ideas came into my mind that I want to pursue, and all in all I felt free from the demands of a schedule. No one was asking for me – I’m glad I might have ignored them.
I did talk to a friend who is having a very hard day. Perhaps that is what has been on my mind, too. When others suffer I sometimes seem to absorb their suffering. I don’t know if it helped them but I think that if I could have absorbed even a little of their pain, perhaps their day would be a little more sustainable. God knows.
I’ll go with a Tom Petty quote for today, “I’m barely prolific and incredibly lazy.” Blessings on your productivity.