Spiritual Life Coaching – Grief
It’s been a long time since I have written and it has been the most difficult period of my life. Losing a loved spouse who you have journeyed with for forty years through ups and downs of life is truly the “walk through the valley of the shadow of death.” Moving forward is going to be a challenge but I will find a way with the help, prayers, and encouragement of those who love me. Ecclesiastes 3 says,
For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
Time is a strange thing when you grieve. Sometimes it moves fast and sometimes it stands still. For the most part I am not cognizant of time like I used to be before early December. There have been other Decembers of loss but this was catastrophic. I have not felt like writing. There have been times that I have wanted to write a simple thank you note to folks but I could hardly read the cards. Now I am ready to take one small step – to write a few lines again to share the hope I have – to share with you the depth of love my family has discovered. Now I need the courage to move forward in faith.
As I walked to the podium to speak Sunday morning, I felt that power of the Holy Spirit surge through my life once more. I felt the connection to the Church on earth and the Church in heaven. I’m not worthy to wear the mantle but it’s still my call. I can’t deny it or refuse it. There will be time to grieve but the good work must go on. Pray for me. Pray for strength, wisdom, and courage to grieve and wear my heart on my sleeve for a time. We will all share this journey together at one time or another but there will be a time to cry and then to laugh and to grieve but also to dance.